it's a new day, oh baby it's a new day

so it's like 1am in the morning or something. usually i would be sleeping. usually i should sleep. but i'm not cause stephanie came over and we watched pride and prejudice. and it was amazing (in the most stephanie animated voice i can manage)!!!!

random thoughts in 5 min:

sometimes i wish i enjoyed school. just so that i could actually feel productive or motivated or excited about learning. but i don't. <---this is not good. oh tosh.

yes, i just said tosh. it's pretty much my new lingo. so now you know. k cool.

"i wanna soak up the sun. i wanna tell everyone to lighten up." -sheryl c.

more like soak in the rain. but seriously. please lighten up cause i can't take the darkness any longer.

i've been away for way too long. i need to go back. like now.

i know that this isn't probably making any sense to anyone, so i'm sorry.

awakening went awesome for everyone that knows what i'm talking about. please come to the next one on dec. 1st at 7pm. it's gonna be amazing! haha...

"slow down everyone, you're moving too fast. frames can't catch you when you're moving like that." -jack j.

this song was written for me...i'm sure of it.

oh love. oh life.

im gonna go to bed now. i have class at 8am. whoever you are, please remind me to NEVER take an 8am class ever again. thanks.

oh. one last thing:

tripede.

muahahahaha.

ginger

we got a puppy today! her name is ginger and she is a border collie vizsla mix. pretty much super adorable...

puzzle pieces

tonight i ate a kiwi.
and it was particularly juicy. bright green with tiny black seeds and perfectly sweet. love.

on thursday i went to the david crowder concert and he played a guitar hero guitar.
it was probably one of the coolest things i've seen in a while.

i'm sick. today i was talking to some people at church and i realized i sounded exactly like meg ryan in "you've got mail," when she's all stuffed up in her apartment and tom hanks comes up and brings her daisies...
in any case, i really would like to get better...

i would really like to be a "no" person. i say "yes" way too often...but i guess that's how God made me...

last night i had a dream. i haven't dreamed in a really long time. "and it was good."

today we shot did our "promo vidi" (as josh likes to say) for awakening. it was amazing. and nathan made me laugh so hard... =) btw, awakening is the name of our worship/prayer night that college group is starting at my church...its gonna be so rad!!

umm...school has been really hard. harder than i expected it was gonna be anyway. but i'm doing good so far thankfully.

there will soon be an addition to our family! a puppy!!! i'm so hippity hoppity! it's gonna be a border collie vizsla mix...3 weeks countdown! any suggestions for names? it's a girl...

i am thinking that i'll probably transfer up to northwest university in kirkland, wa next fall if everything works out. i'm really excited!!

and i'm thinking about going to australia in december. but we'll see what happens with that.

well, that's pretty much it as of lately...

oh. i really want to see across the universe. like really really bad. i bought the soundtrack off of itunes i love it. ahhh..but i don't have time to go see a movie. um i'm gonna make time. how about tuesday night. sweet im free. so i'm gonna go see it on tuesday night if anyone wants to come.

k. peace out.

btw.
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i want ellen time!! ugh.

*this blog has nothing to do with puzzle pieces...or does it?

enough

i have so many things running through my head right now that i wish i could write down, but somehow i think the point of all those thoughts would get lost in the words...

basically i've had enough...

i've had enough of mediocrity.

i've had enough of living selfishly.

i've had enough of living without passion.

i've had enough of being stagnant.

i've had enough of being impenetrable.

i've had enough of living in fear.

i want life to be amazing. i want to wake up every day and be able to say, "i'm so excited for life!" i want to be filled with life and energy and passion. and i want those things to overflow so that others will see how awesome our God is, has been, and always will be.
and i will be filled. because i have found something worth living for. and that is Jesus Christ.

so i love fall

i'm really sorry if i offend anyone, but i'm pretty much really happy summer is over...cause i LOVE fall. it's most definitely my favorite season of all time. yessssss.

so i'm listening to collide by howie day right now. wow. this song brings back memories. way back in the day. aww i made this acoustic mix and it is the one of the greatest things ever created. i will be listening to it for the next 4 months...LOVE!!!!

k besides that random comment...it's so sweet though, the colors changes, maple leaves falling...reminds me of when i was little. and the cooler days help me remember that all my favorite holidays are coming up. well. first is my birthday...in like 10 days! and then halloween and thanksgiving and christmas and new years!! and then all my friends come back from school and i get to see them and that's awesome!

just for all of you...here's a recap of my summer.

high school ski camp
indonesia
saw carly and people up north who i love very much!
went surfing!!
decided to not play soccer at clark.
got a nannying job.
went to the beach with lauren
family camp
went camping with kylie, jordan, and ryan.
went to tom's house and went boating
collaged...
went to seattle to see renee
played tennis with brant
played my little pony memory
went to powells and bought a sweet coloring book.
went to the zoo
ate frog, calamari, and ethiopian food
fell in love with thai iced tea
had to say goodbye to all my friends that went back to school! =(
stayed the night on a sailboat with carly
decided that i want to be a teacher
emily turned 16 and now i don't ever see her...sad...
nathan turned 18 and i missed his birthday cause i was camping.
went to bali and boogy boarded.
went to a lot of coffee shops.
started playing indoor soccer again! yay! i love soccer.
and college group started up again...well now REVolutionalIVE.

books i read this summer:
praise habit by david crowder
in the meantime by rob brendle
a long way gone by ishmael beah
blue like jazz by donald miller
kite runner by khaled hosseini
pride and prejudice by jane austen
authentic faith by gary l. thomas
and stories from fairy tales by hans christian andersen.

so i start classes the 24th:
u.s. history
french
world lit
speech

yesss.

i'm excited about going out to my favorite spot. and watching life. i've decided that i want to get some stuff accomplished this fall. like play guitar. and start painting. but well see how much i'll get done.

um i guess that's about it.

besides the fact that i want to dance through the rest of my life. k sweet.

bye.

cult of americanism

"American culture is no longer created by the people...A free, authentic life is no longer possible in America today. We are being manipulated in the most insidious way. Our emotions, personalities, and core values are under siege from media and cultural forces too complex to decode. A continuous product message has woven itself into the very fabric of our existence. Most North Americans now live designer lives- sleep, eat, sit in a car, work, shop, watch TV, sleep again. I doubt there's more than a handful of free, spontaneous minutes anywhere in that cycle. We ourselves have been branded."

Lasn likens life in what he calls America to life in a cult in which 'we have been recruited into roles and behavior patterns we did not consciously choose.' Does the child who sits in front of a television set for three to four hours a day, shops at the mall with her parents, goes to school and recites the Pledge of Allegiance, plays computer games, listens to her president encouraging everyone to go out shopping in order to defeat terrorism, wears clothes from the Gap, and plays with the toys created out of the imagination of Disney and Hollywood, ever actually choose the American way of life? Did she go through a ritual of initiation beyond getting her first Barbie? Was there a moment of conversion in her life when the American dream became her dream? No. She imbided this monoculture consumerist dream in the fast food she ate, the polluted air she breathed, and the visual culture she inhabited. And so she was converted, made into a cult member, before she ever knew what was happening. Lasn points out that 'dreams, by definition, are suppose to be unique and imaginative. Yet the bulk of the population is dreaming the same dream. It's a dream of wealth, power, fame, plenty of sex, and exciting recreational opportunities.' When a whole poplulation dreams the same dream, empire is triumphant.

Colossians Remixed 170-171.

elizabethtown

i know a lot of people who don't like this movie.
they say, "it's slow" "it has no plot"

"and who says we have to listen to 'them'?"
"they do!"

but i have to say otherwise. i really think that this movie deserves the title of incredible cinematography. the music, the scenes, the details, the lighting, everything about this movie is just so perfect.

elizabethtown is about life. day to day life.

"life and death. and death and life. right next door to each other! there's like, there's a hair between them."

so basically you should see this movie and watch it with an open mind. after i watched it, i had a deeper appreciation for the simplicity, as well as the complexity of life

moving on....

if you decide to read the following, you should take a couple moments to ponder the quotes. why else would i put them in??

"trust me. everyone is less mysterious than they think they are."

this is so true. everyone wants to be mysterious. it's like it's just a big game to try and make people interested in you. why do we do this? and besides, everyone reveals more than they want to or think they do anyway. sometimes i think that being mysterious is pointless. but at the same time, i won't lie....i sometimes try to put on the facade that i'm more mysterious than i am. but that's the fun of it, it's not really that i care if others see me as mysterious. it's basically because i just want to feel like i'm mysterious.

"no true fiasco ever began as a quest for mere adequacy."

"i've spent so much time thinking about all the answers to the problem, that i forget what the problem actually was."

"sadness is easier because its surrender. i say make time to dance alone with one hand waving free."

agreed. i say fight for joy. not happiness. joy. joy is an attitude. happiness is a feeling.

"i want you to get into the deep beautiful melancholy of everything that's happened."

i think people miss out on life when they do not think about things. of course i am not telling you to think all the time, but sometimes life requires thought.

"we are intrepid."

this quote goes out to stephanie. thank you for making me watch this movie.

"men see things in a box, and women see them in a round room."

"it takes time to be funny. it takes time to extract joy from life."

personally, i think going through hard times is good for people because it makes them realize that this statement is correct.

"i'm fine."

what kind of explaination is this?? think about it. it is probably one of the dullest answer to the queston, "how are you?"

"i was still waiting for everything to start, and now it's over."