Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

the ferocious plunge

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SOFD: you got what i need by joshua radin

i have this distinct memory burned into my mind that happened more than just a few times. That is, my dad, after restlessly perusing the kitchen, pulling open the drawer, picking up a spoon, and shuffling sneakily over to the cupboard where he'd slyly pull out the peanut butter, undo the cap and take a ferocious plunge into the jar with his spoon. then he'd take bite after bite, until mom would finally notice and reprimand him, "dad, are you eating the peanut butter out of the jar again? that's gross!"

but it didn't take me long before i understood why this happened so frequently. after dad offered me some, this addiction would never be broken.

today, i did it again. munchies hit, i perused the cupboard and spotted the jar of deliciousness. and so i went, plunging away at this deliciously salty sweet nutty paste of goodness: beloved peanut butter.

Sunday, August 29, 2010

budapest

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good morning all!

today, woke up early due to massive construction going on near our flat. slow morning thus far though. just lazying around, taking stellar pictures, eating breakfast, and listening to alexi murdoch. love.

big day planned for today. lots of walking, sigh seeing, and checking out HUGE castle. you can read about it here.

budapest reminds eric and i a lot of portland. there's two sides (buda & pest) split down the middle by the danube river. buda is more the rich hilly side and pest is the middle class/party side. there are 10 bridges crossing the danube (10 also crossing the willamette). anyway, it's awesome.

oh, and happy birthday to my new mother janet today! love you and am very happy to be your new daughter!

<3

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

living in shalom

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shalom.

a word i had always wondered about, but never quite understood.

ryan, a fellow student i met at northwest when i was there, always greeted me with the word shalom, but he was a bible student and i figured that it was just some hipster bible student phrase.

in the last few weeks, i've come to a greater understanding of the word shalom. originally, i just thought it meant peace, but when researching it, i came upon this definition:

"hebrew shalom ..... a word study in the new king james version for SHALOM says: completeness, wholeness, health, peace, welfare, safety soundness, tranquility, prosperity, perfectness, fullness, rest, harmony, the absence of agitation or discord."

christ brought shalom to the earth, he restored the brokenness, conquered fear, and brought completeness and perfection to the earth through his death and resurrection.

last week, as the women in my home community were praying, we discovered that most of our stress was related to relationships and expectations. philippians 4:6-7 came to mind:

"do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to god. and the peace of god, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in christ jesus."

this 'peace of god' is shalom. christ is also named the prince of peace in isaiah, and later on in philippians 4, it says, "and the god of peace will be with you." these names both carry the meaning of shalom.

as i am coming up on the wedding (basically 4 weeks away: yay & eek!), i've been increasing stressed out and exhausted from working and trying to get everything done.
(just have to say thank you to my wonderful parents who have been keeping me on track.) but through the business, i've learned that by leaning into christ's shalom, that everything will work out and that i don't need to worry myself over all the details.

wooooo!

shalom!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

everything is going on

everything is going on.
my mind is on overdrive.
i can't keep things straight.
i'm happy.
i'm sad.
i just want to sleep.
things need to get done.
decisions have to be made.
everything must look beautiful.
details have to be attended to.
money must be spent.
change must take place.
i must pack up and move.
i will not live with my family again.
my family is amazing.
emotions are torn.
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
the itinerary must be finalized.
tickets must be purchased.
bags must be packed.
flowers must be picked.
flags must be made.
dresses must be finished.
exhaustion sets in.
the twins need attention.
my eyes won't stay open.
all i want is silence.
all i want is time.
but everything is going on.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

rainy day sonnet

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heavy clouds release their tears upon me
steadily, i lift my ceramic mug
and pour down the dark aromatic tea
strings and keys become my sedative drug
"come," she whispers, through soft wind and rain
faintly, i follow her alluring voice
footprints pulse to a melodic refrain
rhythms compel me and i have no choice
drenched in cold, i shiver under her spell
mirages challenge my reality
under the canopy of firs i dwell
until i'm called back to normality

my soul awakens with the warm sunshine
oh, isn't there more to this, goddess divine?

Thursday, June 3, 2010

thoughts of a lion

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SOFD: lion's share by amy annelle
WIKI: have hair like a lion

thursday thoughts:

thomas and i enjoyed breakfast together this morning which included chocolate donuts and chocolate milk. yuuuum.

yesterday at work, i answered the phone and had someone accuse me of being high and drunk. talk about a first. anyway, my aunts are awesome and stood up for me. oh people...

my cousin's wedding is in 2 weeks. crazzzzy. and then i will be back on track for planning my own wedding.

eric is almost done with the quarter! yay! right now he is probably frantically working on a huge project that's due tomorrow! (good luck love!)

i've not been super motivated to work on wedding things lately (mostly because it's been so overwhelming), but i'm going to blog about wedding inspiration soon!

oh, and in general, i've just been really happy and thankful about my life. my family, my friends, my fiance, my job, and even school (i know!), i just love it all and am so thankful for the memories and education and everything that i've gone through. :) yay!

the end of this season of my life (single/dating/education/living at home) is almost over and i will be married in 78 days! and then begins the new life of being married, finding a full time job, and having actual grown up responsibilities. it's all a bit scary sometimes, but also really super exciting!