Wednesday, July 21, 2010

living in shalom

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shalom.

a word i had always wondered about, but never quite understood.

ryan, a fellow student i met at northwest when i was there, always greeted me with the word shalom, but he was a bible student and i figured that it was just some hipster bible student phrase.

in the last few weeks, i've come to a greater understanding of the word shalom. originally, i just thought it meant peace, but when researching it, i came upon this definition:

"hebrew shalom ..... a word study in the new king james version for SHALOM says: completeness, wholeness, health, peace, welfare, safety soundness, tranquility, prosperity, perfectness, fullness, rest, harmony, the absence of agitation or discord."

christ brought shalom to the earth, he restored the brokenness, conquered fear, and brought completeness and perfection to the earth through his death and resurrection.

last week, as the women in my home community were praying, we discovered that most of our stress was related to relationships and expectations. philippians 4:6-7 came to mind:

"do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to god. and the peace of god, which transcends all understanding will guard your hearts and your minds in christ jesus."

this 'peace of god' is shalom. christ is also named the prince of peace in isaiah, and later on in philippians 4, it says, "and the god of peace will be with you." these names both carry the meaning of shalom.

as i am coming up on the wedding (basically 4 weeks away: yay & eek!), i've been increasing stressed out and exhausted from working and trying to get everything done.
(just have to say thank you to my wonderful parents who have been keeping me on track.) but through the business, i've learned that by leaning into christ's shalom, that everything will work out and that i don't need to worry myself over all the details.

wooooo!

shalom!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

everything is going on

everything is going on.
my mind is on overdrive.
i can't keep things straight.
i'm happy.
i'm sad.
i just want to sleep.
things need to get done.
decisions have to be made.
everything must look beautiful.
details have to be attended to.
money must be spent.
change must take place.
i must pack up and move.
i will not live with my family again.
my family is amazing.
emotions are torn.
sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same.
the itinerary must be finalized.
tickets must be purchased.
bags must be packed.
flowers must be picked.
flags must be made.
dresses must be finished.
exhaustion sets in.
the twins need attention.
my eyes won't stay open.
all i want is silence.
all i want is time.
but everything is going on.