it seems like every fall i have some theme song that i tend to live by or some albums that have greatly influenced my life at the time.
although it's been a while back, i can still remember about the last four years and it kinda signifies how i've grown as an individual. the lyrics in most of these songs mirror the way i felt when i went through different stuff. anyway, here it goes...
FALL 2005:
albums:
keane-hopes and fears
death cab for cutie-plans
the fray-how to save a life
songs:
someday you will be loved-death cab
we might as well be strangers-keane
everybody's changing-keane
look after you-the fray
how to save a life-the fray
FALL 2006
albums:
john mayer-room for square
jack johnson-in between dreams
augustana-stars and boulevards
matt costa-songs we sing
joshua radin-we were here
songs:
love song for no one-john mayer
yellow taxi-matt costa
boston-augustana
winter-joshua radin
fall away-the fray
FALL 2007
albums:
mae-the everglow
across the universe soundtrack
timmy curren-word of mouth
indoor picnic music vol. 1&2
songs:
steer-missy higgins
hard times-eastmountiansouth
something-jim sturgess
after your heart-phil wickham
back in your head-tegan & sara
1234-feist
monday-ALO
green eyes-coldplay
FALL 2008
albums:
coldplay-viva la vida
the gabe dixon band-self titled
the maccabees-colour it in
natalie portman's shaved head-glistening pleasure
songs:
death and all his friends-coldplay
toothpaste kisses-the maccabees
sophisticated side ponytail-n.p.s.h.
lovely tonight-joshua radin
the night starts here-stars
5 years time-noah and the whale
violet hill-coldplay
free ride-nick drake
you remind me-andy shauf
can't go back-the weepies
there you have it. hopefully i'll keep it updated so you can all share in my love for good music.
peace.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
this is our day today
today i left for work almost an hour early so i could have some time to drive and clear my head and listen to some music. as i shuffled through my ipod, i realized it was a matt costa day. i began with cold december which hit the spot immediately. halfway through the cd i came across a song called these arms...the first verse was fine, but then he sang the chorus which goes like this...
this is our day today
can you find the way back to these arms
this is our day today
won't you find the way back to these arms
and my heart sank.
there are a pair of physical arms that i want to find a way back to all the time...
and that's really hard to deal with...
but more importantly, there are spiritual arms that seemed to call this out to me...
"ellen, won't you find your way back to my arms?"
i felt like Jesus himself were sitting right there asking me this.
i felt like He was sad.
and i felt sad too.
cause it's been about time that i get real with Him again.
and reader, i'm going to be honest.
and this is hard cause so often i would rather just have people think i'm doing great.
why? that's an entirely other conversation...
but yes, here it is, it's out on the table for all to see:
school is not what i thought it would be.
i'm starting to check out.
i'm struggling with my devos.
i haven't been very social.
i haven't gotten involved.
and i'm homesick on top of it all.
everyday i honestly wish that the day would go by faster just so the next day will go by faster so i can get home sooner.
and i know this isn't what it's suppose to be like.
and i know that it's my own fault for not applying myself.
i just had to be straight with my abba today.
these next 3 years are probably gonna some of the most difficult years of my life.
here's why:
1. i have to get through school (and im not very fond of school)
2. i have to make a foreign place my home.
3. i have to wait to be with eric.
i told God i was sad. i told him i was not sure i could do this. i told him i didn't like this.
and then what popped into my head?
joy. joy? JOY?!?!?! in the midst of trails?
of course...gross.
i decided i need an attitude adjustment.
so this blog gets more personal. more honest.
this was my prayer:
dear Lord,
this is what i'm asking. you know me better than anyone ever. you know my weaknesses & strengths, so Lord, prune me. cut out my weaknesses. i know its not gonna be easy, but following you isn't always easy. refine me. whatever you want me to go through to get me more like you want me, please do it.
i surrender.
i want to find a way back to your arms.
and i'm sorry for holding out on you this last week or so...
love, ellen
so it seems like this note is pretty depressing.
but it's not suppose to be.
i feel like i triumphed today.
i got something right.
He spoke. i responded.
now i need to act.
this life doesn't get easier does it?... :)
and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. and hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
-Romans 5:2b-5
let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. and let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another--and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
-Hebrews 10:22-26
therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great could of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race that is set for us. let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for teh joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
-Hebrews 12:1-2
this is our day today
can you find the way back to these arms
this is our day today
won't you find the way back to these arms
and my heart sank.
there are a pair of physical arms that i want to find a way back to all the time...
and that's really hard to deal with...
but more importantly, there are spiritual arms that seemed to call this out to me...
"ellen, won't you find your way back to my arms?"
i felt like Jesus himself were sitting right there asking me this.
i felt like He was sad.
and i felt sad too.
cause it's been about time that i get real with Him again.
and reader, i'm going to be honest.
and this is hard cause so often i would rather just have people think i'm doing great.
why? that's an entirely other conversation...
but yes, here it is, it's out on the table for all to see:
school is not what i thought it would be.
i'm starting to check out.
i'm struggling with my devos.
i haven't been very social.
i haven't gotten involved.
and i'm homesick on top of it all.
everyday i honestly wish that the day would go by faster just so the next day will go by faster so i can get home sooner.
and i know this isn't what it's suppose to be like.
and i know that it's my own fault for not applying myself.
i just had to be straight with my abba today.
these next 3 years are probably gonna some of the most difficult years of my life.
here's why:
1. i have to get through school (and im not very fond of school)
2. i have to make a foreign place my home.
3. i have to wait to be with eric.
i told God i was sad. i told him i was not sure i could do this. i told him i didn't like this.
and then what popped into my head?
joy. joy? JOY?!?!?! in the midst of trails?
of course...gross.
i decided i need an attitude adjustment.
so this blog gets more personal. more honest.
this was my prayer:
dear Lord,
this is what i'm asking. you know me better than anyone ever. you know my weaknesses & strengths, so Lord, prune me. cut out my weaknesses. i know its not gonna be easy, but following you isn't always easy. refine me. whatever you want me to go through to get me more like you want me, please do it.
i surrender.
i want to find a way back to your arms.
and i'm sorry for holding out on you this last week or so...
love, ellen
so it seems like this note is pretty depressing.
but it's not suppose to be.
i feel like i triumphed today.
i got something right.
He spoke. i responded.
now i need to act.
this life doesn't get easier does it?... :)
and we rejoice in the hope of the glory of God. not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. and hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us.
-Romans 5:2b-5
let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. and let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another--and all the more as you see the Day approaching.
-Hebrews 10:22-26
therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great could of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles, and let us run with perseverance the race that is set for us. let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith, who for teh joy set before him endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
-Hebrews 12:1-2
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