Thursday, April 29, 2010

my new family


so this is my new family: north tabor home community!

oh photobooth...


ahhhh yes. at 2:40 i will be officially done with spring semester 2010. And what do i have to show for it? well, other than some learning, this picture. :)

yayyyyyyy. done! freedom to work on wedding ish!

and other random art projects!

and visit carly for her college graduation! (and MAYBE go to d-land!!!!)

Saturday, April 24, 2010

grapefruits of music

SOFD: dance anthem of the 80s by regina spektor
WIKI: flash mobs
ETSY: linen pleated dress this is one of my favorite items on etsy. too bad i don't have $130 sitting around... :)

i'm a huge music nerd and so i couldn't pass this fill in the blank from the little things we do.

1. One song that always takes me back to my youth is
swing swing by all american rejects. and pretty much anything by audio adrenaline.

2. My first concert ever was
smalltown poets. i went with my best friend stephanie and her mom. it was pretty cool cause we were 13 maybe.

3. If I could create my dream music festival I'd want these bands to be there:
well it'd be a combo of two genres:
chromeo, the bravery, esser, late of the pier, friendly fires, architecture in helsinki, muse, the presets, santogold, passion pit, jamiroquai, boy crisis, mgmt, matt & kim, the faint, data, natalie portman's shaved head, and whole-z. omg and mc hammer/vanilla ice!!
joshua radin, john mayer, coldplay, dave matthews, noah and the whale, all of my brushfire friends (jack johnson, matt costa, alo, g. love, zach gill, meiko), the envy corps, vampire weekend, eric hutchinson, the fray, switchfoot, amos lee, blues traveler, the gabe dixon band, ok go, michael buble, joss stone, jason mraz, a fine frenzy, the weepies, the kooks, train, kate nash, and sheryl crow.

4. The best make-out/"boot knocking" song ever is
it's good to be in love by frou frou (imogen heap).

5. The best concert I've ever been to was
the fray and augustana at the roseland back in 2006. it was at a smaller venue before they got really big and i went with my cousin and my best friend. and i'm a sucker for upright pianos on stage. it was magical (and the band was hilarious!).

6. A memorable musical moment for me was
haha. ok, you all will not believe this, but back in 2006 (during my emo stage), me and two of my girlfriends went to see the lashes and after the concert, we all kissed members of the band. oh man, i remember totally freaking out after we finally left cause that is totally something i would never do!

7. The song on my iPod that's getting the most play these days is
probably a tie between these 3 songs:
night by night by chromeo
eden by phil wickham
dance anthem of the 80s by regina spektor

alright. now onto homework!

Thursday, April 15, 2010



i remember how you'd call my name
And i would meet you at the garden gate
how the glory of your love would shine
and i remember when the stars were young
you breathed life into my lungs
oh i never felt so alive
i wanna see you face to face
where being in your arms is the permanent state
i want it like it was back then
i wanna be in eden
where my eyes can see the colors of glory
my hands can reach the heaven before me

eden by phil wickham

Friday, April 9, 2010

swallowed by the sea


she once had a boat with sails as white as a lamb. she set sail for new land. following her compass, she estimated that my trip would take a few seasons. through wind and rain she persevered. when sun drenched the mahogany deck, she basked in it's glorious rays. the swells and ebbs became her identity. her sails followed the wind. the excitement of discovering a new land grew with each mile gained.

now, her chase is over.

she sold her white sails and her beautiful boat. she sold her adventure.

now, she drifts without purpose.

one day she will be swallowed by the sea.

Thursday, April 8, 2010



today has been so weird.


i am so confused!

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

hiding behind curtains


do i, god, look this stupid when i run? or is it a bit cute, like a kid hiding himself by burying not much more than his face in the drapes? we, obviously, don't think we actually hide from our omniscient god. we hide from ourselves. we hide him from ourselves.

the umbrella-less traveler can't stop the coming storm by simply shutting her eyes. The sun doesn't disappear behind closed curtains, or even the horizon: all and every day and night it explodes itself into the universe.

likewise, god is eyelidless. light and dark are just ideas he exists above and outside of. he separated one from the other like we half an apple. to get how he gets you, imagine yourself floating face up in the center of a warm sea, and the water you are in is everywhere you can go--god is not the sun or moon, but the water around you, holding you to himself, sure as gravity.

Monday, April 5, 2010



i come uncollected, adrenaline hot in my veins and my pupils staring. i come hyperventilating, blind, dumb, panicked, wanting everything but you. my breaths are sobs of disappointment, cowardice, exhaustion, terror--there is a better way than this, and i was on it; why did i turn?

i cannot hold myself still. i cannot keep myself true. but lord, here i am. teach me to breathe.