spiders really scare me

DAI:

SOFD: replay by iyaz
WIKI: break it down, get it done

thoughts:
-there is a black spider in my room under my bed. i almost couldn't sleep last night.
-my back is wigging out. like i might have scoliosis or something. i noticed that my spine is not straight a week or two ago and it's freaking me out.[doctor, doctor, help me!]
-i have 3 weeks to get all my ish done for school. that includes two 15pg papers, and 30pg novel, and a take-home final, plus other stuff.
-my boss is moving. so that means i am packing stuff for her. which is stressful.
-christmas is coming. im not very excited thus far.
-i woke up this morning to my mind screaming. i didn't even know what to do with myself.
-i need to get back into my devos. seriously. this is probably the root of it all.

i keep telling myself that if i do well in school, and get this ish taken care of, this will be my LAST STRESSFUL (school-related) FALL.

this song came on my "get that chin up" playlist today on my way to school:

chem 6a by switchfoot

nothing but a chemical in my head
it's nothing but laziness
cause i don't wanna read the book
i'll watch the movie
cause it's not me
i'm just like everybody else my age

i think i'd rather play around
and i think i'd rather watch tv
cause i don't wanna face my fears
i'll watch the movie
cause it's not me
i'm just like everybody else
i'm just like everybody else

because i don't wanna be here
i don't wanna see this now
it's all wrong but it's alright
and i don't wanna be here
and i don't wanna study now
it's all wrong but it's alright

i don't know what love is
i don't know who i am
and if i ever want to find out
i'll watch the movie
cause it's not me
i'm just like everybody else my age

i don't wanna change the world
and i don't wanna be someone
i don't wanna write the book
i'll make the movie
cause it's not me
i'm just like everybody else
i'm just like everybody else

i don't wanna be here
i don't wanna see this now
it's all wrong but it's alright
and i don't wanna be here
and i don't wanna study now
it's all wrong but it's alright

(given my situation lately, this song really did it for me this morning. obviously, not everything was hit on the head with the lyrics, but some was.)

oh and im sure that lots of people would look at my situation and tell me i've got it easy. and i know i do. i just want to shake through the next three weeks and be like the girl in the picture.