Sunday, October 23, 2011

grass is blue

you got so much love in you
you look the songs i've heard my whole life coming true

i've been debating if this is gonna be one of those long rambling posts
kinda wanna just be short and sweet though

i've been in the process now trying to understand all the roles i have and what it means to stay true to myself while in the process of change and transition.

sometimes i laugh at my naivety:
thinking that "once i do ______, life will be easy/good/fulfilling."
for you newbies out there, it's never like this.
the grass is not greener, it's more blue or yellow.
every transition is different in it's own way, not always completely better.

 i guess i've been reality checking these days.
trying to find the sweet spot in life.
and i don't really know what it looks like yet
or have any idea how to start getting there.

 there's always improvements that i want to make
but the list goes on and on and on.
and this isn't to say that i'm not happy
because i am and could have an entire post dedicated to everything i'm thankful for. :)

but i am always looking to improve.

it's never easy as it sounds,
but that's why we have a lifetime, ya?



  1. I think that "sweet spot" is learning to appreciate where you are right now, other wise you will always be looking for that spot, and realize you've spent most of your life looking for it. Sweet spots are everywhere. Just decide you are there!

  2. Love your post, Ellen. This is true to my experience, too...